Hearing your heart beat for the first time was the most amazing thing I have ever heard in my life. I still remember it like it was yesterday. Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump, was a sweet song that I could listen to for hours. I couldn’t wait for you to come into this world and spend the rest of your life with me. Here we are at your last appointment, I am now 39 weeks pregnant and they are going to induce me tonight. I can’t believe that I am going to meet you tomorrow!
Fear and anxiety are running through my body. I can’t believe that this day has finally come. Labor is not something that I was looking forward to but the reward of it all is well worth it. Contractions got very intense before I got the epidural. That was the medicine sent from heaven above. Hours went by, contractions were still coming but they were not very productive. After fifteen hours of labor and with no progress, they had to do an emergency caesarian section. I was very scared but excited at the same time. I have waited long enough to meet you! As they are rolling me into the operating room, I kiss your father, and your grandparents who are all there ready to meet you. Thirty minutes later, I hear you scream for the first time! It was amazing! You were so beautiful!
Holding you for the first time made it real that you are actually here. Just holding you makes everything special. Making skin to skin contact with you is amazing. Seeing how much your father loves you is written in his eyes when you are in his arms. I could watch that for hours. You have the cutest little fingers and toes. Everyone loves you so much! Who knew that the sound of little feet was the music that we danced to week to week. It brought your father and I’s love to a whole new level. I am very thankful for that.
Watching you grow into the person you are today is amazing. It has been an incredible life long journey. We have had our ups and our downs, but we still love each other. You will always be my child even when you are older and married. Writing this story has brought back all the memories that we have shared over the years. It has been an amazing journey thus far and I can’t wait for what the future will bring. I love you very much; you’re my heart, my soul, and my heart’s inspiration. Nothing will or could ever take your place in my heart. I love you!
By Heather Wishart